Lately, i've been so overwhelmed with life in general. Some days it feels like im slowly sinking in quick sand and the more I struggle to free myself, the faster I sink. The urge to get moving faster, the urge to type faster, the urge to read faster...it all just slowly makes me heavier and I sink faster. Its been this way at work and then I go home and its that way with school, and then to top it off I've had personal issues with a long time friend and the boyfriend. I couldn't have predicted the sudden increase in my work or personal difficulties, so I loaded up on classes this term which is seemingly a bad idea at this point. But fear not my followers, there is light at the end of the tunnel! I've managed to kick ass at work over the past two days and have caught up and now I'm just working on stuff that was put off and not that important (aka busy work) and last night was the first time I was able to actually understand my Computer Software Design class (...now i just have to work on that whole accounting class deal ha).
The one thing that annoyed me even more when I was struggling in life was when people kept saying "you just have to get through it", "just put your head down and focus" and so on. Hello people, what the hell do you think im doing?! im not giving up, im not twittering my thumbs and watching it all pile on top of me. Im struggling to stay afloat and your "inspirational" words are NOT helping! but what i've realized now that im feeling positive and optimistic again, is that they're right. yes life happens, sometimes it can feel like your being bogged down but "this too shall pass".
A quote that has really made me think is "Everyting negative - pressure, challenges - is all an opportunity for me to rise". Its SO true! its just an opportunity for me to shine and show that I can move on and overcome these challenges! I have, I will and i'll do it all over again when the time comes!
With all my struggles lately, I really haven't had time to shoot let alone do anything else. I did do an amazing shoot before school started with my absolute favorite photographer/friend, The Morty (http://www.mortyshots.com/Welcome.html). If you ever get a chance to shoot with him, I can guarantee you that you will come out with some amazing images and have tons of fun while getting them. He's become a really great friend through all of our shooting together (and we're birthday twins!!). Here are some of my favorite shots from our shoot at the beach:
(I did all the styling and make up/hair for these shots)
and then here is one shot from a fun shoot with the Wilde clan:
The Beast
And I've got a shoot planned in Seattle in May with Michael Falco and one of my favorite models, Holly. We've been trying to pin down a date and its finally set so we are in the brainstorm faze and bouncing ideas of each other. What we've discussed so far is amazing and tune in for those in May. They are going to be awesome, I can just feel it! I'm also planning a shoot with a photographer that goes by Gene and that should give me some edgy shots to add to my portfolio. We're still in the trying to figure everything out phase as well so we will see what we come up with but I've got some good styling ideas!
Well thats all for now folks! and ill leave with you a quote from my favorite philosopher, Ralph Waldo Emerson:
"Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine"
Now lets not stand in our own sunshine today, or tomorrow or the next :)
Love you all,
Nicki
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